this little someone i call “angel”

so. i have really been wanting to write about this “person” but i don’t want to put his/her name just right out in the open, so i have decided to call this person “angel” i guess i kinda picked this name because him/her has become my guardian angel. but anyways, back to what the post is suppose to be about. so me and angel have been though a lot this past four months. i just met angel at the beginning of august. mmkay.. i’m going to say that its a “he” because it would be to hard to word everything out. :]] ok, i need to stop. so angel has been kinda avoiding me for a very long time. to me it might seem like a long time but to him i am guessing that its nothing. today i saw him, he looked so different, kinda like a different person. every once in a while i would look up and he would look at me, i kinda looked away fast. i don’t why i did that,, because i want to have reconciliation with him, but it looks like he is not ready. i bet he doesn’t know how much i miss him, and how much i think about him. i pray for him every night. lately i have been kinda frustrated with god. it seems like he doesn’t answer my prayers. whenever i think of him i think of - Matthew 6:14-15. forgiveness. angel is the most wonderful person you could ever meet. i would suggest everyone to get to know him, i just wish i had a second chance. he said i did, but that never happened. i want to talk to him about the situation,, gosh i really do. everyone is telling me stories about how to just move on, but i cant move on, he hasn’t told me that he has forgiven me, and that worries me because in Matthew 6:14-15 it says if you don’t forgive those who trespass you, you wont be forgiven. i am not seeking help in this situation anymore, I’m not giving up hope, and i’m not giving up faith in him. i hope that some time soon he will turn around, maybe give me a surprise and come up to me to talk. i don’t know what i want. i’m still trying to figure it out.